I am the last person that should be writing on this subject. Someone who is not a mother writing about mothers; she must be crazy. Maybe I am, maybe I’m not. I am not here to tell you what you should and shouldn’t be doing, but rather encourage you, and hopefully if the Lord wills, show you that you really do have a great calling.
I grew up thinking that by the time I was the age that I am I would have a home filled with little ones. It was always my one and only desire; to grow up, marry, and be a mom. I still have the desire to marry, and be a mother, but the Lord has been very gracious to show me contentment without marriage and children (a subject I am hoping to expound upon as the Lord guides), and He has chosen to bless my siblings with children that I truly see as a blessing in my life. The Lord may not have given me my own, but He has placed little ones all around me to love on, and for that I am truly grateful.
Today was the anniversary of the day of my birth, which is just a fancy way of saying that it was my birthday. I always look back on the past year on this day and my eyes filled with tears as I thought of this last year.
There have been blessings. So many blessings! I became an Aunt to 2 more children, and that is one of the greatest joys in my life; to be an Aunt. I thank God that I can play that role in the lives of 5 children, and hopefully more one day, if the Lord chooses to bless with more. I have been healthy, which is something I have taken for granted too often in life. I thank God for the health He has granted me in my life, and pray that He continues to do so, but it is my prayer that I will never cease to praise Him no matter what comes my way. I celebrated working at Redline for 6 years this year, and I am just so thankful that this job came my way when it did. God was in control!
I think it would true to say that I have grown more in my walk with Christ this last year than ever before. There is a very dangerous rut one can fall into when we live our walk with God in a mediocre way, and I was stuck in that rut for many years, which shames me to the core. I rejoice in the fact that God forgives us of our sins when we repent and turn from them! This past year I have claimed the victory over sins that I have fought with for many, many years. To God be the Glory, Honor, and Praise! I rejoice in the assurance that I have been delivered, and that through what Christ did for me on the cross I can claim the victory through faith! Oh how sweet it is to walk with my Savior.
This past year I said goodbye to my dear grandma. My last grandparent. It brings tears to my eyes just writing that. I miss her so much, but God has been so faithful during the grief and the hard days. I have lost all 3 of my grandparents in the last 4 years (one died before I ever had the honor of meeting him). When my grandma passed away in May I found myself asking God why I had to grieve and experience death so much, but He has been faithful. I thank Him for how He undertakes for us when it seems things are too hard to bear.
A reoccurring theme in this last year is that God never left me. He showed Himself true to me in the good times, and the tough times. It is my greatest desire, and prayer that I will learn to look at the hard times with joy, for it is in these times that we are reminded that we need not, and cannot do things on our own. It is then that God can fully show Himself to us. May I live in a way that I lean on Him always in both the good and difficult times.
So another little munchkin has found her place in my heart. Mckinley Beth was born to my younger sister and bro in law. I love all 7 lbs and 2oz of her so much already! She was born on July 15, 2014.
Mckinley, I love you so much, and will always be praying for you. You are in my heart and your Taunte (auntie) is always gonna be there for you! May you grow into a women that daily strives to serve God. I love you!
With the passing of my dear grandmother there has been a lot of talk about her legacy; the legacy she left behind for us. It has lead me to ponder the term itself, as well as the legacy she did leave us, and the one I want to leave when I pass from this earthly world.
leg·a·cy noun ˈle-gə-sē
: something (such as property or money) that is received from someone who has died
: something that happened in the past or that comes from someone in the past
(Definition taken from here)
I prefer to think of the second definition when referring to my grandmothers legacy. Though the definition seems too bland when I think of what she went through, and what she left for us. She lived a life of faith, sorrow, perseverance, and victory.
Grandma was a young widow with 13 children to raise on her own. Life was not easy. She was given opportunity after opportunity to “throw the towel in”. What she choose to do instead is the legacy she left us. She choose her Savior, the one that saved her from her sins. She accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as her Savior long before she knew what her life would entail. She remained faithful till the end.
I too, have accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my Savior, and I cannot help but wonder where I would be had my Grandmother not taught the importance of repentance and yielding to the Lord’s will the way she did. My Grandmother spoke of Salvation and the importance of being saved to her own children, who then told their children, and we are now responsible to do the same. All 13 of her children walk with the Lord, and as far as I know the vast majority of her 64 grandchildren do as well. We can already see the fruits of this teaching in a lot of the 108 great-grandchildren. What a legacy that is!!
As I think of my own legacy, I struggle to think that I am even capable of leaving one. Me? When I consider glory, and the one I call my Savior how can I ever do Salvation justice? For my grandma, the most important thing she left behind for us was the message of Salvation. She was not concerned with leaving a bank account full of money, property, or worldly possessions. Her greatest desire was for each and every one in the family know Jesus as their personal Savior. Her burden stretched further than family. She spent a lot of her years ministering to the community in her own way. She was such a wonderful women. I want to praise her continually for what she has done so unselfishly, but I know that she would want all the Glory given to God!
Oh that I would awaken to a sense of the importance of speaking of Jesus. I pray that I will daily acknowledge the pleasant responsibility it is. May I honor the the Lord as I take up this responsibility and may I find favor in His sight.
4 “Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one! 5 You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.
6 “And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. 7 You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up. 8 You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. 9 You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.
Let me help carry they legacy my grandmother left us. May I never grow weary in my walk with The Lord, and may I stay faithful till my end.