I have been absent from this blog. I have left my series on the attributes of God hanging, and those of you who read diligently each time I post have not heard from me in almost a year. At first it was writers block, then it was busyness, and then my year just went a bit lopsided. This past year I have had some ups and downs. There have been some valleys of struggling in my walk with God, and the last thing that seemed right was writing about my faith when I felt like a dry and barren land spiritually. My bible reading and prayer life seemed robotic, more like a check off the to-do list, and less of a time of refreshment and hearing from God. Some days I just left it out all together. This is not easy to admit, but I think it is important. Sometimes it is good to hear that others struggle sometimes as well. If that is you – you are not alone; not everyone is enjoying smooth sailing 100% of the time.
During this time I slowing found old temptations rearing their heads. Things I had thought I had long ago been freed from. I felt powerless in fighting these temptations, and some days they would torment me all day long. I started feeling sorry for myself. I found myself justifying things because life was not what I thought it would be. I figured my plan would have been better than what God seemed to have in store for me.
Life went on, some days were good, some days were tough. There were days where I was bombarded with feelings of doubt. I was pretty low at this point. I am a private person when it comes to how I am feeling. I have always been this way, and it is not till I am through the valley that I can even begin to think of sharing it with others.
So, how did I get from there to now writing about this, sharing with you my time of doubt; a time where my sin of selfishness led me away from my relationship with my Lord and Savior? I came to a point where I was given, by they Grace of God, a renewed realization that I knew where to find water. Me, a dry and thirsty Christian knew where to find water. I knew where to find a cure. I also knew that no one, or anything I could do would break me to the point of submission to Christ except the Grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.
The greatest mistake we as Christians can make, and do make is breaking communication with our water source. It shames me to even admit that I did. I mean, who, stranded in a literal desert would cut communication with a water source – a lifeline? This would not happen in a literal sense, and it should not happen in the realm of our spiritual life either.
I opened my Bible to Psalm 146, and 147. I found there words on the goodness of the Lord, and the happiness of those who trust in Him.
Happy is he who has the God of Jacob for his help,
Whose hope is in the Lord his God,
Who made heaven and earth,
The sea, and all that is in them;
Who keeps truth forever —-Psalm 146:5-6
The Lord takes pleasure in those who fear Him,
In those who hope in His mercy. —-Psalm 147:11
I am not sure if there is a lesson here, but I did not feel right just continuing my series on the Attributes of God without being real with you. I am thankful for a Savior that is ready with open arms, with forgiveness when repentance takes place. I praise Him for His mercy!
Praise the Lord!
For it is good to sing praises to our God;
For it is pleasant, and praise is beautiful. —-Psalm 147:1