I do a lot of random Journaling and this is something that I thought I could share.
It is so common to encounter painful times in our lives where God feels distant. It feels as though we walk the hard road alone, and no one understands the struggles we are going through. When disappointment comes, it floods our lives all at once, and defeat slowly creeps in until we feel like giving up.
Personally, I have been struggling with discouragement and wondering what God wants for me. I catch myself buying into the lies that Satan desperately wants me to believe. He wants me to give up. He wants me to think there is no hope for my life. I admit that I have been neglecting the Scriptures trying to find answers in other things , and I know all the answers can be found in one book; Gods word can give me so much hope. I know that He desires to build character within my life, and mature me, so I can be more available to do His work. …and to think that someone cares for me as much as God does overwhelms me so much.
Romans 5:3-5 says,
“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”
Even during the hardest and most discouraging times in our lives, God is creating Christ-like character within us. Suffering is a part of God’s plan to make us more compassionate and loving. I often find myself asking why God would make us go through hard times… I mentioned earlier that I have been feeling discouraged and I found myself asking God once again why He was making everything so hard. However, He does not make us go through the struggles alone, but walks with us every step of the way, and gives us strength to keep moving forward despite opposition. In fact, in
Deuteronomy 31:8, we learn,
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Right after I had asked God “why?” I noticed a church bulletin on the floor of my room and that was the verse on the front of the bulletin. I know now that it was God trying to give me special encouragement.
God also tells us not to give up because His plan is far beyond our comprehension; If something doesn’t work out the way we expect it to, we must recognize God’s sovereignty, knowing He never shuts one door without opening another, which is far better according to His plan for each of us! This whole concept is far beyond my comprehension… God knows exactly how our life is going to turn out, yet he gives us the freedom to make our own choices….this just blows my mind.
I don’t know if anyone else ever feels the way I do but I just wanted to encourage anyone that might be feeling discouraged. You are not alone in your trials. In fact, Jesus himself knows rejection greater than anyone else. He wants to mend your heart and restore you, so He can use you for something incredible!! Even if you don’t understand why at the time, just wait, because He knows what is best for you!